Let the adventure begin!
I’m sitting here at the airport thinking about someone that’s becoming a tradition for me. Every year since I got divorced, I’ve decided on and accomplished something big, something that scares me. I use it as a way to push myself and grow because we don’t if we never stretch outside our comfort zone. Or at least I didn’t grow that much with it.
In 2011, the Big Scary Thing was National Novel Writing month. I’d never done it and was intimidated by the idea of trying to write 50,000 words in just 30 days. It seemed like in impossibly large amount in an awfully short amount of time. But in the Fall of that year, I was turning over a few new leaves and one of them was to take writing more seriously. NaNo seemed like a great way to start the ‘show up and write every day just like a job’ approach. A job I loved, true, but one I committed to and didn’t shrug off for meaningless, mindless ways of filling hours. That was a very successful BST, one that lingers to this day in the writing habits I have now.
Last year, my BST was to publish a book. That was terrifying. I can’t tell you how often I thought about calling it off, or was sure I couldn’t do it. I wondered if I was making a mistake almost every day. But it was exciting too. Yes, I did make mistakes in hindsight, but I learned from them. And it’s just the beginning of my career. Every time someone has told me they read and enjoyed Bound, every person who asks when the sequel will be coming out, I’ve been thrilled and thankful I jumped in and did my Big Scary Thing for 2012.
Regular readers of this blog will already know what the Big Scary Thing is for this year. I’m waiting now to board a plane for it. I’m going to my first convention. I am so far beyond terrified that I can’t think of a word for it, but I’m doing it anyway. It started as a whim, when I realized that Norwescon is just across the border in Seattle and that the full pass wasn’t that expensive. I thought it would give me a chance to get my feet wet with something close to home.
I don’t think I realized what I was getting myself into until yesterday, when I went through their guide and noticed the sheer volume of programming. This con is huge! *snort*getting my feet wet with something easy, yeah right. That just wouldn’t be me. I do this all the time, stumble into things by accident only to realize how important they are when I’m in the middle of it. Trust me, I come by this honestly, as my mother does the same sort of thing. 😉
I’m nervous about the crowds and more so about meeting my favourite author, though she’s really nice from everything I know and have seen. One of my best friends knows her. I’m just afraid ill meet her and make an ass of myself. No, I don’t usually do that sort of thing, but it also wouldn’t be a first for me. And, of course, I realized on the way to the airport that I forgot the books I wanted to have signed. *facepalm* Typically me. Oh well. I have some cool talks I’m going to no matter what and a blogger buddy I’m going to have coffee while I’m in his town. This is looking fun already, even if it is scary.
Things can be both, right? 😉