I have a feeling that this is going to be an awesome weekend, for a number of reasons. The primary one? I’m taking Friday off from work, for no better reason than because I want to and I can (boss-approved too). The other reason? I have plans for this weekend!
No, not date type plans. I’d have to get out more to find a guy to date for that to happen. No, this weekend, I’m planning on starting the first pass of editing for Possession. By then, it’ll have been two weeks since I finished writing the first draft and I haven’t even opened the file since writing The End. I’m pretty proud of that, as it’s about twice the amount of time I left the second draft of Bound in the drawer. We won’t even discuss how quickly I dove back into that first draft. That’s not to say I haven’t been itching to dig into editing Possession, but I’ve been a marvel (okay, relative marvel) of self-control this time. I can feel it slipping though, so I’m trying to maintain my dignity. It will also serve to keep me from reminding anyone of things I might be waiting (semi)patiently for. Oops, I think that was me slipping again.
I’m trying to be good here, really. I’m just not good at it, but you should give me at least a few points for effort.
In the meantime, I’m still working away at the outline for The Nine, which is coming together. The story is mostly there, with me pretty much trying to figure out one patch. I have the ending fairly well visualized at this point, unlike Possession, but I’ve been thinking and mulling over the ending of the trilogy since I started editing Bound’s second draft, so I suppose that shouldn’t be any surprise even to me.
I also had a few more ideas toward Necromantic and I’m trying to feel out the story behind a new idea that’s mostly setting/world/society at the moment. Even the main character is a bit hazy at this point, but that might be because of the inspiration for it. This idea involves a society that spends a shocking amount of it’s time wearing venetian type masks. I won’t go into it too much, but that’s the new entry on the Project Status page, Masques. So I haven’t been idle on the idea front either, but then I think most people figure out quickly that I am almost never idle there.
All that aside, I think I need to work toward a decision regarding the large elephant that seems to have taken up residence in my apartment. How it got up the stair, let alone through the door, I don’t know. You see, I’m still very much up in the air on what to do with Bound when I decide I’m done editing and revising it (not when I decide it’s perfect, because it never will be, no such thing, not to any writer I have ever known). I still like the idea of self-publishing it as an ebook, but the way people tend to think of self-published authors is a bit intimidating. I’m not sure if I’m good enough to stand out in the sea of dreck out there. In some ways I agree with the idea that it’s too easy to publish now and worry if it’s good enough later (if some of these people even worry about it at all). I don’t want to be that, and while I don’t think that I am doing that, I’d be lying if I said I don’t wonder now and then. I doubt that the people who do such things realize that’s what they’re doing, so how am I supposed to know if I’m just deluding myself?
Also, I am terrible about self-promotion. Just yesterday, someone at work sent out an email specifically to tell my boss (and several other people) that I did something pretty awesome that took me a while to do, because she knew I would never toot my own horn like that. I thanked her for that today, but it made me think about whether I would be able to get over that in order to promote my own writing. I rarely think my work is awesome in any arena, and every time I think about saying I did great on something, this voice in the back of my head asks if I’m really sure about that opinion, and so in a fit of self-doubt, I say nothing instead. Not good for promoting my book, and it’s really part of my job as a writer to do that.
Part of me wants to say that if my book is any good, people will find it and enjoy it, and maybe share it, but I have some doubts that it’s so simple as that. It’s kind of like the idea that if my book is good, it won’t be a problem to get it published traditionally. Hahaha. Right, because publishers never reject good manuscripts and/or ones that go on to be successful later. Pardon the lake of sarcasm, I’ll have someone clean that up. I know that it would be foolish to count on either luck or even quality alone to make a book successful, and so I have to wonder if I’m even up to the task of making it successful on my own. I have trouble just selling myself in an interview for a job, and that’s really just selling myself to one or two people most of the time. How am I supposed to manage it for all the potential readers who (I hope) might enjoy my book?
I’m not even sure if I’m looking for advice here or just taking an excuse to whine. I will probably go with self-publishing anyway, partly because I want to try it, partly because I’ve gotten this far with my writing specifically by pushing myself outside my comfort zone. Also, I think that, if I can learn things from the experience about subjects like self-promotion, it’ll stand me in good stead down the road, whether I decide it was a mistake to publish that way after all and go Trad-pub or continue merrily down that road. Given I have no shortage of ideas, I suspect I have little (or less) to lose by trying it out.
Okay, now that I’m done (I think ) whining about the dilemma of how to publish a novel I’m probably not done editing/revising, let’s move on to the picture of the day. I keep meaning to post this one, only to get distracted by some other pretty picture. This is from spring last year, in downtown Vancouver. There are a lot of flower beds and gardens in this city. It makes me happy.